"The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat"
why can’t I just let go why do I fool myself thinking you care why can’t I not get you out of my head even though I know I don’t mean shit to you. You say fucked up things and then just say it was a joke, I don’t believe it. If u cared at all you’d havebthe balls to admit it but you’d rather keep it your shamefull dirty secret. I even had a dream about it and I tell you and you laugh the kind of laugh that says its funny cuz that’s what happened but whatever ima just try my best to forget about you Ana finally stop getting hurt I know it’s gunna be tough but I can’t talk to someone who does fucked up shit and doesn’t even care who it hurts at least you got ur money for it that’s all that matters I guess,fuck me for ever thinking you felt like I do
I hate everything I’ve become I’ve lost everything I cared about. The boy I wanted to spend my life with wants nothing to do with me and I feel like I’m now completely empty. I have neither love nor hate just an empty void. He has good reasons to be fed up with me but the way things went down its also obvious that he no longer has the love for me I thought he did. I guess I really thought we had something really special and that even though I’ve hit rock bottom and has every right to abandon me I still thought our love was more powerful than that but that’s my mistake in now forced to move on and try to forget even though that’s quite impossible seeing as he’s the love of my life. But I realize its truly over and he just wants to move on with his life and forget what we had that’s fair I guess I just really underestimated the love and potential we had I thought it was unconditional but apparently it wasn’t and it seems to be oh so easy for him to completely let go good luck to you just be happy ur not completely destroyed like I am I hope ur next boy is good enough for you even though its impossible for him to come close to loving you as I do and always will be farewell daddy I will always long to be your babylove forever and forever will and Vesuvius will forever be on my mind and the reason my cock throbs
this is my cover of Mission of Burma- thats how i escaped my certain fatee
Ive ever been this sad in my whole life. My world turned upside down….i only hope that I can prove myself and be good enough for him….and soon cuz I dont think i can even be happy again until im in his arms again:(
don’t dream it, be it.